Live this life.
Whatever,
however it is
right now.
Live it.
Look for the story
life has to tell you.
Care for your
StarBeing
and the rest
will sort itself out,
will fall in to
place,
or rather
flow in to place,
space,
equation,
the new
Listen to those
with soft voices
and wise hearts,
the fairy queens
and life
adorners
Leave the rest
to the side
Jump at every
chance,
see where it leads you
this life.
This.
StarBeing,this.
Cecilia Gotherstrom, Dec 2025
If I am really honest, in my heart of hearts I will soar like a bird, touching the snow covered mountain tops. I will run downhill paws deep in the mud, grass and moss like a wolf, chased by the wind, embraced by moving space, scents, a whiff on a hunt not for food but for play, for life, for joy. If I am really honest, in my heart of hearts I will sing to the dawn, dance in the shadows of morning and eve. I will not succumb to this mediocre numbness of sitting not to be sitting but to be seated where someone put you. If I am really honest, in my heart of hearts there is no resistance, no pull, no push, no tug, no moving, without purpose. Like a reed in the wind, its movement its purpose. If I am really honest, in my heart of hearts I will throw out all the blankets, the cushions, the pillows and their safety-nets. In there, in my heart of hearts is she, her, it, them, this, whatever opens, whatever closes holding a candle, enjoying the flickering of the light, the wind, the rain, the snow, the sea, the cold, the sun, the wintery, wintery skies. If I am really honest, in my heart of hearts that mountaintop is my home, those woods my backyard, my pantry that river, my blood. I sit there, having chosen to sit there myself. I live there. Having chosen to live there myself. I breathe there, having chosen to be there, myself In my heart of hearts. Cecilia Götherström, April 23rd 2022
Today I had a thrust of inspiration to start this blog.
The inspiration did not come out of nowhere, though the thrust did.
Warriorship has followed and intrigued me my whole life, as far back as I can remember .Or I could also call it a constant fascination with and an attraction towards warriorship – be it the Samurai, the Shaolin Monks of Kung Fu Shaolin, the Haka, the Bhagavad Gita, Yoda of Starwars even.
What has drawn me in the most has had nothing to do with fighting, but all to do with presence, perserverance, a sense of deep seated wisdom, of purpose , of belonging and knowing. Of standing “your ground”, knowing it is actually “the ground” which you are part of.
A strength not merely physical, but omnipresent.
The road to this day, to the beginning of this first aware step on this path has been long, diverse and winding.
Just like the Yoga Sutras by Patanjali begins with “atha yoga anusasanam” – where “atha” stands for “now” and the complete sutra is saying “now, the instruction of yoga” – I feel, for the first time, that I am standing ready, somewhat prepared, almost thrusted forwards to walk this path.
“Atha yoga anusasanam” – these words are spoken to us by Patanjali for the moment after the student has done all the preparations necessary to embark down to path to really learn and receive the instructions of yoga.
“Atha” – the real path of this warrior begins now .
How auspicious one might say that I was presented with this thrust of inspiration today, the very day I had finished quite a process of clearing out old garbage and finally felt a tad bit cleaner .
The very day I had finally in my heart understood the essence of one of my favourite passages of the Bhagavad Gita which goes “Set thy heart upon thy work , but never on its reward. Work not for a reward , but never cease to do thy work”.
The very day I for the first time completely understood with every fibre of my being the essence of the saying “All that exists is the Now, this very moment. Nothing else exists, nothing else is real”.
The very day I thought I found the root to Joy, to Being, to just live in the Now, to do my work whatever that may be at that very moment.
That today, would also be the day of my first attending the Stay Away/Krav Maga course.
“Atha”/Now, as part of the first step on the “path of this warrior”, I was being presented with the information on how the workings of our “day-to-day-programmed-for-survival-and-what-we-call-social-interaction-minds” really should be interpreted through a clear looking-glass . How the “predator – prey” jungle out there, which we call daily life, actually works.
Oh, how many, if not all, situations laid out I recognized from my own life, my own personality – and we all did, as they were everyday situations to start with.
How it made me see situations, conversations and interactions from a completely different angle, many from an almost complete opposite view.
A warrior’s view sees all, without attachment. There is no judgment, just knowing.
In the Bhagavad Gita the mind is pictured as the battlefield by many commentators, and life as the battlefield by others. But what is the difference between life and mind?
Mind interprets life.
Life programs mind.
The warrior sees from “behind” the mind.
The very clear instruction in this Stay Away/Krav Maga course today started with seeing “behind” what we call life. Behind the mind.
To do that, the instruction was to understand “the mind” of the other person in connection with your own mind and vice versa.
The battlefield, once again.
The confrontations with “myself” were many this first lesson.
Some situations mentioned took me back to a past when things really went wrong, but then came “it does not exist anymore, all that exists is Now” back in.
Standing up for myself and holding my space felt extremely awkward at first, not helped by the fact that I know, and am fond of, all three instructors – but then came “set thy heart upon thy work…” And my work was to learn what was being taught in that moment.
So, the second trembling step on this path was taken.
“Atha” is now behind me.
The journey has begun.
I salute my fellow travellers.
A-ho.
March 13th 2014
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