I believe in guidance,
in guidance I believe
- yet, I do not seem to
believe
 in
myself

I grasp and grasp
and grasp,
fingernails bleeding,
splinters wedged
underneath them,
grasping still
at the outside,
at confirmation
that I
am allowed
to exist

I believe in guidance,
in guidance I
believe,
yet I cannot seem to see
what guidance
tells me
in this dark world
around me,
at this time

Darkness is there,
so that we can
see the Stars,
StarBeing.

I understand that,
yet why
can I not
see
the stars?

Because you must
wrap yourself
around them,
StarBeing.
Allow the darkness
to fold
to unfold,
challenge the wind,
embrace the rain.

I don’t know if I can.

You can,
StarBeing,
you can.

Cecilia Gotherstrom, Dec 2025