In a bag a few minutes ago I found this piece below which I wrote on Jan 10th 2014.
Reading it now, it gives me goosebumps – as giving the turmoil, development, moves and all that has happened the past 2,5 or even 3 years , it is more than symbolic that I wrote this early 2014 and am finding it today – July 12th.
Return
The return is imminent,
faith awaits
Her huge white wings
sweeping me in,
closing out the darkness for now
As the wings open
the dark, velvety night sky is adorned
with galaxies,
light-holes
and wishes turned in whisper
I stand there,
basking in her glow,
listening
to the whispers from now,
the whispers from before,
the whispers that were,
that are,
that will come.
In this place all is one.
There is no then,
no now,
no later.
Is the return really a return?
Or is it an opening of what was always there?
She asks me to open my eyes,
my ears, my heart,
with softness,
with a waiting,
whatever comes in.
A feather falls from the sky
into my hand,
I can feel its softness
caressing my cold palm,
almost making me giggle from the tickling feeling.
I watch the feather
as it turns and turns in my palm,
first slow,
then faster,
and faster.
The spiralling movements
makes it stir up
and away.
The feather has turned in to a huge raven,
first white,
when he takes flight I can see him
shifting in to grey,
then in to black,
his glistening eyes disappearing
with the flapping of his wings
directions Ursa Major.
The wind coming from the pine tress in the back,
bring another whisper,
a song,
an anthem.
There is a vibration from the ground,
I turn around.
The whole forest alive,
waving,
swaying,
gently sining a tune
of return,
of now,
of all never being anything other
than what is now.
A brown bear beckons me to come closer.
She has two cubs at her side.
It feels like I know them,
like I have seen them before,
like we are family.
I look up at the sky,
towards Ursa Major,
where Raven headed,
then look back at Mother Bear.
I return.
Cecilia Götherström, 10/ 1 2014
FlowerOfTheThunderAndLightning 